Iman's left foot got bitten by an insect yesternight and it swell like hell. She keep moaning in pain. I was having a hard time taking care of her. She was cranky all along. When Kak Leena came back from work, we thought of visiting Iman's doctor at Lot1. When we reached there, the clinic was closed! So we went to another outlet which was at Jurong East. We searched for it like hell and ended up it was closed too. Since both outlet was closed, we decided to go to Yew Tee. Whatever it is, get well soon little Iman. (Hugs and kisses).

I'm pretty upset with my current situation. It's miserable. I've been rotting at home taking care of Iman(well, not that i mind). I'm not allowed to go out with my friends. Basically, Iman is my full-time entertainer. She never fails to put a smile on my face eventhough she is not feeling well. Mum won't let me go out like other kids. She prefer me sitting at home baby-sitting rather than going out. She wants me to be like Euis and Syae. Haha.

It's been a while since Syae, Euis and myself last spoken to each other. I've been missing alot of things. I miss laughing with them. Not only i miss spending time with them, i miss spending time with Hafiz too. It's hard for me to contact these people cause, i'm busy baby-sitting Iman and i bet their busy with their own stuffs too. Yes, i miss them alot but there's nothing i can do.

I feel bad about myself. I really need a break but i can't. My parents never understand me. Yes, they always shower me with love but sadly, we never talk any personal stuff to each other. Not even about BGR or whatsoever. Sometimes, when i listens to Euis parents talking about football or marriage or something in common that they have among themselves, i get jealous. I always let my parents down cause i'm not good in my studies. All they do is compare me with others. Yes, parents always compare! What if we compare them with other parents? How would they feel? I don't wish to talk bad stuffs about my family. I just want to let out my feelings. It hurts me alot. I'm never close to any of my siblings due to the age gap. I'm 14 years younger than my brother and i'm 7 years younger than my sister. Yes, you people may think that we might be close and all but no. It's not true. I only get most of the things i want from them but seriously, we don't talk much to each other. It saddens me.

I miss laughing and have good times with my girlfriends. I miss sharing problems with Hafiz. I miss everything. I'm tired of crying. I better stop now. I feel so emotional today. Maybe it's my moodswing.

I haven't been sleeping well lately and my head is spinning right now. I better turn in now. Need some rest.

Life getting suckier each and everyday. (Insertparanoidfacehere).