Wednesday, March 19, 2008
It's nerve wrecking to know that your all your hardwork was not worth after all.
I had to re-do my art prep work after 3months. My family was quite upset with everything.
But i know Mdm Fazelah is a reasonable person. I really hope i can do much better this time.
Like what i told Rafika and Syahirah, i'm not myself and i don't know why.
I bottle up my feelings and pretend nothing happen.
I don't know what's wrong with me and i seem to know nothing about myself.
I'm confused. I cried as soon as i reached home and i fell asleep.
I woke up and continue crying cause with this kind of results, i'm going nowhere.
Mum wouldn't want me to end up in ITE but i know i will end up there.
I'm not a bright girl and i don't think i can cope with secondary5 work.
I would love to step in into secondary5 life but i have no confident in myself.
I don't know what am i gonna do. I'm totally screwed up.
I've wasted enough time and i don't think it's worth it.
Insyallah, Allah will answer all my prayers.
I want to end up becoming someone not no one.
Thanks to Rafika and Syahirah for your advices.
You guys are the one who understands me more than others at this point of time.
I thank you guys for everything. Don't stop encouraging me.
I really need it. Hahahaha! [insert smiley face but in tears].
Guess that's all for now. I need to continue finishing my layout and prep work.
